What Is A Miracle?

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Story by Lenny D., Spingfield, PA

Lyrics (in italic) to “Miracles Out of Nowhere” by Kansas from the album “Leftoverture”, 1976.

On a crystal morning I can see the dewdrops falling

Down from a gleaming heaven, I can hear the voices call

When you comin’ home now, son, the World is not for you

Tell me what’s your point of view


Late summer turns to early fall. God it’s beautiful, Paul thought to himself. The colors changing, the air nice and clean (even in Center City Philadelphia), 70s throughout the day, 50s throughout the night. Perfect.

He had just climbed the steps from the subway leading him down Walnut Street to his office. He loved the city. Loved everything about it. Cared about it. He was born in South Philly and still lived there. The city nurtured him and Paul wasn’t one to forget where he came from. He had a short trip from the subway to his office building. Passed the same people every day. The same smiling faces. The same guys on bikes. Same food truck. Routine. It was comforting.

He made his trek on this crystal morning expecting his usual routine. But not today. Today Paul saw a different face. Maybe, not so different.

“Hey pal,” the face called out. “Pal. Can you pray for me?” The face was smudged. The clothes were rumpled. The hair dirty, clumped in need of a good washing. The sneakers – why did he notice the sneakers –at one time white, now wore the buildup of months and months of city grime. “Can you pray for me?’ the face asked again.

Paul averted the eyes that were tracking him and kept walking. “I’ll pray for you” the face called out. Paul went to his office, fired up his computer and waited for it to come on. As it made its way through the sign-ons, passwords, beeps and grinds, Paul thought about the face. What was his story? How did he become “the face?” It bothered him on and off throughout the day.

That evening at dinner he mentioned the face to his family. “Saw a homeless guy today on the street. Never saw him before.”

“Did he approach you for a handout?” his wife Anna asked.

“Did he want money?” his 8-year-old son asked.

“Did you give him any food,” it was his 12 year old daughter.

“No. None of those things. He seemed different. He asked me to pray for him.”

“What did you say to him?” his wife asked.

“I didn’t say anything, I just kept walking. Then he said he would pray for me.”

“Daddy, did you say a prayer for him?’ his son asked.

“No. No I didn’t.” Paul held his fork, which had the last piece of chicken from his plate on it, close to his mouth ready to take a bite. He put the fork down without finishing his meal. He didn’t say much the rest of the evening except “good night” to the kids and his wife.

Anna, seven- months pregnant with their 3rd child whispered to him in bed so the other kids couldn’t hear, “What’s bothering you so much about that homeless guy?”

“I wish I knew. It was such a beautiful day, and then I came across that face.” She knew not to ask him anything else.

Paul turned away and tried to sleep.


Hey there Mister Madman, wat’cha know that I don’t know

Tell me some crazy stories, let me know who runs this show

Glassy-eyed and laughing, he turns and walks away

Tell me what made you that way


Next day. Paul made his trek on yet another crystal morning. Same familiar pattern. Same subway. Same walk.

Same face. “Hey buddy,” the face called out. “Buddy. Can you pray for me?”

Paul kept walking. “I’ll pray for you” the face called out. Paul went to his office. He thought more about the face. This time thinking about the clothes, the sneakers, the hair. Who was the face? Again, he sat at the dinner table that night.

“Saw that guy again – the homeless man.”

“What did he say today?’ his wife asked.

“Same as yesterday — pray for me.”

“And…” it was his son. Paul didn’t answer; he just cast his eyes down and took a sip of soda. He was sure he would see the face again the next day.

“Maybe he is just a mad man,” his daughter suggested. At 12 years old they were all mad men or crazies or goofs. It was a “tweens” way of putting people in perspective.

“I don’t know if he was a mad man… or someone who just fell on bad times,” Paul told his daughter. “It’s all your point of view how you see him.”

Looking to change the subject Anna said, “I spoke with the doctor today. She said she wants to start to monitor me more closely and wants me to come in next Tuesday. She may want to put me on bed rest.” This was a high risk pregnancy for Anna who was 40 years old and needed to be careful for her heath and the baby’s health.

“When is the appointment?” Paul asked. Anna could see Paul was focused elsewhere. She repeated “Next Tuesday.” He barely finished his meal.

Later in bed Anna said “You’re still pre-occupied, aren’t you.”

“About you and the baby – yes.”

“No, about the homeless guy.”

“Yes. Him, too.”

Paul tossed and turned that night.


Downtown Skyline of Philadelphia, Pennsylvania.


Third day. This time even more perfect than any other days he ever seen. A perfect crystal morning.

Same subway. Same walk.

Same face. “Hey pal,” the face called out. “Pal. Can you pray for me?”

Paul walked by – a little slower this time. He slowed enough to hear something from the face that made him stop.

“I’ll pray for you – —– Thomas. I’ll pray for you — Mr. Paul Thomas Fortunato.”

He turned to the face, but the face had turned away and was walking the other way. What in the world…How did he know my name .. what did I just hear?! He called me Thomas! Nobody had called him Thomas in years! Paul hesitated – frozen – a tug-of-war between the wanting to go to his usual way and his usual routine and finally be done with face. Or leave behind the familiar and comfortable and follow the mad man and find out how he knew his name.

He followed the face.


Here I am just waiting for a sign

Asking questions, learning all the time

It’s always here, it’s always there

It’s just love, and miracles out of nowhere



Paul turned to where the face was – but he was gone. Drifted into the morning rush of bodies in Center City Philly.

Paul stretched his neck to see if he could spot him. It shouldn’t be hard – all the suits and business attire crowding the street. He should be able to pick out a shabby Aqualung-looking homeless guy. Paul pressed against the stream of hustling humans walking toward work. Going the opposite direction as the crowd moving aimlessly toward their work day, facing friction and bumping into people. “Excuse me. Excuse Me. Sorry. Sorry.” Always polite in his manner.

Heads bobbing, sun streaming, beautiful morning. He was hustling where he thought the face was heading. Sweat starting to break out on his graying head, not so much from the heat or sun but from his anxiety and inner angst. How could he miss him? How could he let him get away? Paul let out a long breath, tossed his head back and used his jacket to wipe away the sweat from his brow.

He lowered his head in semi-defeat when he noticed a pair of sneakers. Dirty, grimy sneakers. He slowly lifted his head to see the face,

“I’ll pray for you Thomas.,” it said.

This time Paul met his eyes. With his mouth open, a semi-recognition of the face crossed over him. “I’ll pray for you too,” Paul said.

The face gave a small grin revealing a mouth of rotting teeth behind the unkempt beard and smeared face.

“I’ll pray for you too…….” Paul repeated, leaving the ending open, trailing his words, hoping the face would fill in his name.

“I recognized you right away Thomas.”

Paul lowered his eyes. “I kind of recognize you, but I’m sorry. I just don’t remember your name.”

“Thanks for your prayers.” Dulled eyes stared at Paul. “I’m Nick. I’m Nick Santa Croce.”

Oh my God! “Nick!” once he said the name Paul’s brain clicked. “Nick, my God. Nick!”

“It’s been a long time since St. Monica,” Paul babbled, suddenly remembering Nick from his grade school days. Funny guy Nick. Smart guy Nick. It had to be someone from grade school. Paul wanted to say “What happened?” but caught himself not being able to say anything.

“You want to know what happened, right?” Nick took the pressure off Paul who stood there, his mouth still slightly open, showing almost perfect orthodontist-treated teeth.

“Nick, I .. I.. it’s good to see you.” Paul fumbled.

“Walk with me Paul — I think that’s what you want to be called now — Paul.”

“Well, I…I..”

“Walk with me.”

Paul began walking with Nick. Two old grade school friends. One in a suit. The other disheveled. Walking on a crystal morning.

Paul wasn’t sure where they were walking. He said to Nick, “I could go for a bagel. How about you?”

Nick shook his head “yes.”


Tell me now dear Mother, what’s it like to be so old

Children grown and leavin’, seems the world is growin’ cold

And though your body’s ailin’ you, your mind is just like new

Tell me where you’re goin’ to


They had walked in silence. Paul bought the bagels while Nick waited outside the bakery. Nick headed toward one of the skyscrapers and sat down on the pavement, leaning against a building. Paul sat down next to him.

Nick took the bag with the bagel from Paul. “So, when did you become Paul and drop the Thomas?”

“I dropped the Thomas after St. Monica’s. I guess I just felt more comfortable with Paul. — that and I didn’t have Paul Joseph Fortunato in my class anymore to confuse our names.”

“I forget which nun decided to use your middle names to tell you two apart. Two guys named Paul Fortunato in the same class. What are the odds?”

“I can still see them pointing their fingers and calling, ‘Mr. Paul Thomas Fortunato. Mr. Paul Joseph Fortunato. Come here to me!'”

“And then you knew you were in trouble,” Paul smiled.

Nick took another bite of his bagel.

“How is your beautiful mother doing? She worked at the bank, right?” It was a half question, half statement.

“She passed a few years ago. Thanks for asking. She worked at that bank for years.”

“My mother always talked about her. How nice she was and pleasant she was. They talked about us.”

Paul hesitatingly asked, “And your mother?

“Gone. Long. Long time ago.” Nick took a bite of the bagel. “I miss her.”

“I miss mine, too.”

“I remember your family named you Nicholas after St. Nick because you were born on Christmas.”

“Funny, things people remember.”

Paul finally blurted out. “Nick. What happened?”

“Things. Things happen.” He took a bite of bagel. “Fresh bagel. Thanks.”

Paul took a bite. “I kinda lost touch with you after grade school.”



“Yeah. Things changed in high school. Changed a lot. People, too.”

“I remember bumping into you now and again..”

“We ran in two different circles. Paul, you hung with the SMART guys. Me. I started hanging with the WISE guys.”

“Oh,” Paul wasn’t sure what to follow up with once that was out in the open.

“It’s the way things worked out.

“I lost my way. That’s what happens when you look outside your soul to find happiness and peace.

“It started with my mon. I saw my mom suffer and die with that cancer. It broke our family. It was like a crane picked me up and kept dropping me, smashing me to the ground.

“My dad couldn’t handle it. He just shut everyone and everything out. Railed and cursed at God, the doctors, at us. That cancer killed him as much as it killed her.

“He died a year or so after her. And I hated him ever since. I could never find it in my heart to forgive him. I carried that hate for a long, long time.”

“Nick, I’m so sorry. I had no idea…”

“Don’t give me your pity Paul. It could have happened to anybody.” As Nick talked he had a strange wheeze which morphed into a cough. A nasty sounding cough which caused him to start and stop sentences.

“How old were you when she died?’

“I was 16. Just when I could have used my mom .. or dad.. and I had neither. My sister was older and she was already in college building her life. So I wanted a life. Any life. To take away the pain. Fill the void. People promised me things Paul. Said they would take care of me. So I followed them. Followed them and listened to them.”

“What did they tell you?”

“Promises. They made me promises.

“I sold drugs. And took them. Beat up guys who didn’t pay their gambling debts. And bet anything I had. Sold my body. And paid for others bodies. Had a disregard for life. Most especially my own.” Nick had a fit of coughing followed by more wheezing and more coughing.

Paul reached to help him but Nick shooed him away. “I’ll be OK.”

“I had no idea..” Paul was stumbling for anything to interject.

“And I loved that life — I was invincible. I was a king. No one could touch me. But really -it was hollow. All a front. I know that now.

“But you know who knew it was a bad life? My mother. She died before I got into it, but it was like she could see into the future — my future. She was laying in her bed. Full of pain. Full of agony. But she knew and she tried to warn me. Tried to keep me on the straight and narrow.

“Funny, how life’s stories come full circle. Remember the story of Saint Monica — our school’s patron saint — she was in agony for her son —

“St. Augustine, right…,” Paul chimed in.

“Right. The nuns hammered that story into us, how St. Monica prayed for St. Augustine to turn his life around– and how she shed tears for him.. he became one of the greats.

“My mom wanted me to be one of the greats. She was dying but she was channeling St. Monica, crying for me. She said something profound — something I now remember — something I should have embraced. You know what Paul?– she said that people say Satan always comes when you are most vulnerable. But she warned me that he also comes to you when you are at your strongest.

“And I was both at the same time.”

Paul sat there, on the pavement, listening to this homeless mess of a man, speaking like he was a $25,000 a speech keynoter. He couldn’t eat his bagel.

“The worst part, Paul. You know the worst part?

“Nobody cared. No one wanted to see me or reach out a hand. I was garbage to everyone and treated that way by anyone. Paul, I am beyond saving physically. I am loaded with disease. My body is broken and there is no way that I will last much longer.

“That’s why I want you to pray for me. Maybe my soul can be saved. It’s what my mother told me. That no matter what happens – your soul can always be saved.

“That’s also what the good sisters taught us.”

“Nick, I don’t know what to say.”

“I have something for you to say — Say the ‘Our Father’ and a ‘Hail Mary’ with me.”

The two grade school friends, sitting on the pavement then said the two prayers together.

“You better go Paul – you have a job to get to.”

“But Nick, where will you go?”

“To the place I always go – Bethesda Project– off South Street.”

“I haven’t heard of it.”

“It’s home for me – when I want to be there. Days like today are good for the soul to get out. You probably think I couldn’t get lower than this – but I was –my mom came to me and guided me there.”

“Your mom?”


“Tell me the story, Nick…”

“Not now — I want to go home — you need to go to work. Visit me sometimes — and pray for me old friend. We can talk some more then.” Nick got up — didn’t bother to dust himself off. Just turned and walked away. Turned toward his home.

Paul stood up, bagel in hand watching him walk away, wondering if he would ever see Nick again. Paul passed on going to work and headed home.


It’s so simple right before your eyes

If you’ll look through this disguise

It’s always here, it’s always there

It’s just love and miracles out of nowhere


“I’m heading to Bethesda,” Paul said to Anna grabbing a bag of Primo hoagies to bring with him. “Maybe I’ll see Nick again.”

“You’ve only seen him a few times since that day when you two first sat down.”

“When he called me ‘Thomas’ that just shook me.” This was conversation they had several times in the months that passed since Nick and Paul shared their bagel. Anna knew that something was driving her husband, something more than just a concern for an classmate that he really never knew that well.

Anna took a deep breath and gently felt her belly. Her first two pregnancies were fine, but this one was tough.

“Nick never opened up like he did that first day. I can’t just let him rot away.”

“Paul — I’m sure those men at the shelter appreciate you helping and volunteering and bring the food like you’ve been doing these past few months. But it’s December now and I am not feeling good. I need you.”

“Only for a short while — just to drop off the hoagies and try to talk to Nick.”

“You don’t even know if he’s there. The guys that run it don’t know when he’ll show up.”

“I’ve been praying for him. I can’t get it out of my head how he just disintegrated. The pain he was in, the hurt.”

“You have been there so much lately that you seem distant to the whole family and are focused on Nick and the shelter.”

“I don’t know — I can’t figure anything out. Everything in life was so good — running so smooth until that day I saw him. Now, I just don’t know who I am or what I should be doing.”

“What, things are not good anymore? All of a sudden you see an old classmate who has hits the skids and it’s our fault you couldn’t do enough for him?”

“No. No. That’s not it. I mean — what should I be doing? Am I doing enough in this world?”

“You’ve always been a good husband and father and person. You’re doing all you can.”

“But is it enough?”

“It needs to be enough to keep this family going and together. We are here — we are your family and we need to be your priority!”

“You are my priority..”

“Lately, I’m not so sure..” Suddenly Anna went pale. “Oh, Paul,” she held her belly and dropped to her knees. “I feel sick.”

Paul dropped the bag of hoagies. “I’ll call the doctor.”

Within minutes the ambulance arrived to bring Anna to the hospital. She still had about 5 weeks to go before the baby was due and now she was in the hospital, in pain and getting all the attention from the doctors and nurses.

Paul paced the ER. He left the kids at home and his brother Gabriel came over to watch them. He heard the call from the nurse. “You can go back now — room 12.”

Shaking, he pulled the curtain back and saw Anna resting. A bag hanging; intravenous in her arm, some oxygen being pumped through her nose. The doctor was sitting with her, holding her hand.

“Just some dehydration,” he said to Paul. “She’ll be fine. But we want to have her in the hospital until the baby is born. She can be fragile and we want to make sure your wife and baby are safe.”

Paul began to cry. Anna began to cry.

“I’m sorry,” Paul said. “I’m sorry.”

“Don’t be sorry. Hold my hand. Then go to the shelter.”

“I belong here with you.”

“Yes, you do. But there is someone at the shelter that needs you too.”

“He may not even be there.”

“You won’t know unless you go.”

Paul was tired. Very tired. “Not tonight. Tonight I am with you and will be with the kids when I go home.” He skipped going to the shelter. Exhausted he dropped into his bed after picking up the kids. He slept — a deep sleep, the first time he had slept that well since he met Nick Santa Croce and heard part of his story.

He didn’t wake up at his usual time. His daughter had to wake him up. “Dad. Dad. You’ll be late for work.”

“Huh? What?”

“Dad, you’ll be late for work?” she said.

“Oh, no work today. I’m going to see your mother.” He got up, got dressed, dragged himself to the hospital. Anna had been transferred to a regular room –a room she said she would be in until delivery.

“How you feeling today?” he asked Anna, stroking her head.

“Much better. But you know that I am going to have to stay here until I deliver.”

“I know. Me and the kids will be with you all the time.”

“There is nothing else you can do here Paul.”

“I belong here.”

“Yes. You also belong other places.” Something deep inside Anna told her to reassure her husband that going to the shelter was good and that she would be fine.

He smiled wearily, leaned over and kissed his wife. “I’m going to the shelter.”

Anna smiled — she knew he would go — she knew he had to go.

Paul walked through the doors with two bags of groceries. “Hey, Paul good to see you,” said Peter who ran the shelter. “Whatcha got there?”

“Oh, just some supplies.”

From behind he heard the wheezing voice and the cough. “Good to see you Paul.”

Nick! It was Nick! Paul turned to see Nick; physically he looked like a wreck, emaciated, beard unkempt — it was what you would expect. Something was different today, he seemed a mess — except for his eyes — his eyes were glowing. There was something going on with him.

“Good to see you too, Nick.”

“Can we talk?”

“Sure Nick. Sure, we can talk.”

They walked toward the room where Nick stayed when he was in the shelter. Paul noticed a tattered book that sat on Nick’s bed. Paul reached for it. “Is that what I think it is?”

“Yep. The Baltimore Catechism book!”

“Every Catholic school kid in America had to know everything in it. I have been reading and re-reading it.”

“Geez, they pounded that into our heads.”

“I find solace in it, Paul. Reminds me of our days in grade school and the happiest times of my life.”

Nick coughed a little and pointed to Paul and patted the bed.

“Sit Paul. Sit with me.”

“You look different today, Nick. Your eyes. What’s going on?”

“I’m going home soon Paul.”


“Yep.” A wheeze and a cough. “Home. The call is coming. I know it and I’m not afraid.”

Paul understood what Nick was saying. “Tell me Nick. Tell me how you got here. To this shelter. Tell me so that I can help others. Tell me.”

“OK. My mind doesn’t always remember. But today. — today I feel good and can remember. I can tell you.”

“It was summer. I was sweating. That’s what I remember most. Sweat. I was sitting right where we were sitting when we had that bagel. I had pretty much been living on the street. I had lost everything material that I had. I had just done some drug, I don’t even know which one. I was moaning, and sweating. Moaning and sweating. And sitting all alone. A pain shot through my eyes and I yelled and screamed — that my eyes were on fire.

“Sweat pouring into my eyes — I rubbed them, and rubbed them. All I could see was haze. They were burning and the sweat was pouring. Then pain in my head and my ears burning — my whole head was burning. Somebody has to help me — somebody has to help me. I don’t know if I was yelling it out loud or thinking about it.

“I needed help. And no one was there. No one Paul. No one. People walked by, stepping over me, ignoring me, afraid of me. Shaking their heads, and going on about their work. I remember reaching up. This was bad. The worst I had ever felt.

“Then I did shout out loud — not sure why these words came out but they did. I yelled out ‘I am sorry for my sins. I am sorry for my sins. Lord, forgive me.’ I started to cry and the tears washed away the burning in my eyes. The haze lifted, the blurring cleared up.

“And you know who I saw? I saw my mother. My mother and another beautiful woman — must have been a saint but I don’t know which one. They each took a hand and lifted me up. The held me up and walked me to this shelter. Each step they said, “We are here with you Nick. You will be saved. Your work here isn’t done. And God loves you.”


Beautiful Sun with Rays Television Vintage Background

“My work? My work? What work did they mean? Me. Work? I plopped myself into this doorway. The guys here helped me. Cleaned me up as best they could. Got me food and gave me the bed. I’ve been here on and off since then. Living as best I can.”

Paul said nothing. Just looked at his old classmate. “I’ve got something for you.” Paul reached into his pocket and pulled out a small, plastic bag. In it was a scapular.

“I haven’t seen one of these in forever,” Nick said. He looked at the plastic bag. “Heh, it says ‘Made in China.’ Guess the Vatican needs to get stuff on the cheap as well.”

Nick took the scapular out of the bag and unwrapped it. Nick held the familiar strap connected by two cloth patches. He draped it over his head, the thin, brown strap resting on his scapular bones which allowed one of the scapular patches with images depicting Mary and infant Jesus, to rest over his heart. “Made in China; Blessed in Rome. This is probably the greatest export from China to Italy since Marco Polo brought back fireworks and spaghetti.”

“Wear it Nick. You’ll never be alone with it on. The Blessed Mother will be with you.”

“Paul, I also heard that if you die wearing this that you will go straight to Heaven.”

“That’s what they claim,” Paul said with a non-committal shrug. Nick kissed the picture and made the sign of the cross.

“You know Paul. We all are going to die — but not before our work is done.”

“I’m not sure what my work is or what it is supposed to be?” Paul said.

“We may never truly know. We just need to trust in Him. And remember the words of the creed ‘In what I have done and in what I have failed to do.’ Paul, it’s not just actions but inaction can be just as important.”

“I’m going to go now Nick. My wife is in the hospital. They are worried about her and the baby. She’ll be in there the rest of December. Right through the holidays.”

“Go to her and your family,” Nick said touching the scapular. “You can come back tomorrow.”

Paul left the shelter thinking that Nick was some type of modern-day prophet/philosopher. How could one so broken speak like one who has it so together?


I sang this song a hundred, maybe a thousand years ago

No one ever listens, I just play and then I go

Off into the sunset like the western heroes do

Tell me what you’re gonna do


“I’ll be home later tonight after I get the meals set up at Bethesda and visit your mother,” Paul told his kids. “You’ll enjoy Christmas Eve with your Uncle Gabriel, Aunt Elizabeth and cousins. There doing the 7 fishes dinner, just like Grandmom and Grandpop used to do.”

“But dad, we hate those fish!” it was a simultaneous objection from both his son and daughter. “Can’t we go with you to help and see Mom?”

“You’re going to Uncle Gabriel’s house. Besides, it’s nasty cold and the snow is piling up.”

Paul took the subway and got off a block from Bethesda. He slipped and slid as he walked through the Philly streets. The Christmas Eve weather had turned nasty. As nasty as one could imagine. The wind was whipping ice and snow all around.

He shook off the cold as he entered the shelter. Immediately he knew something was wrong. “What’s going on?” he asked Peter who was running the dinner that night.

“Bad news. The truck bringing the meals skidded on I-95 and hit a barrier. It’s not going to make it here.”

“Can we go get the food?”

“No, police have closed the road — too icy and dangerous.”

Paul looked at the faces of the men milling about. Sad faces, looking forward to a Christmas Eve meal, now another disappointment in their lives.

Highway traffic in heavy snowfall

From among the faces Nick Santa Croce walked forward. “Paul. Remember the first time we talked to each after all those years?” Nick was wheezing and coughing. “We ate bagels. We talked. We prayed.

“A little prayer right now would be good for our souls, it will take away the hunger from our bodies.”

Paul knelt on one knee and made the sign of the cross. He held Nick’s hand and began the “Our Father” and followed it up with the “Hail Mary.”

When he finished with the “Amen” a knock came on the door of the shelter.

Peter answered the door. “Yes.”

“I’m John. I am the manager at Natalie’s Place — the restaurant around the corner.”


“We had a lot of cancellations because of the weather. We have all the food but no customers. My staff is bringing over the food. I hope you can use it?’

“That’s wonderful. Oh, my that’s wonderful!” Peter smiled.

“C’mon in guys,” John told his staff. “Here it comes — we have shrimp, calamari, clams, mussels, baccala, smelts, flounder. All this wonderful fish. And tons of bread to dip in the juice.”

“Fish?” Peter said. “Bread?”

“Yeah, from the Feast of the 7 fishes. Christmas Eve tradition.”

“It’s like a miracle out of nowhere,” Peter said.

As John and Peter handed out the fish and bread, Nick smiled at Paul. “Can we talk in private?”

Nick grabbed Paul by the hand as they walked toward his room. Nick felt the scapular hanging around his neck that Paul had given him. “I want to give you something old friend,” Nick said. He reached under his flattened pillow and pulled out a small, tattered star. “This is for your Christmas tree. I hope you can find a place for it.” Nick was wheezing and coughing.

“It will be the first ornament we put on the tree and the last to come off.”

Paul’s cell phone rang. “Excuse me a minute Nick.”

“Uh huh. Yes. Yes. Sure, I can walk from here and will be right there.”

Paul looked at Nick. “It’s my wife — she is going into labor — I need to get there.”

“Before you go I want to tell you one thing. I didn’t know what my life’s work was. Now I know.”

“You know?”

“Yes. I know.”

“What is your life’s work?”

“You Thomas.” He used Paul’s middle name. “You were my life’s work. The unfinished business that I was kept here for. You have been here to support us. Help us. Show us love and compassion. It was your prayers that helped bring in those fish and bread. Because you are a good man.

“Think about this. As you look to find out what your life’s work is — remember that the lives you touch confirm your life’s work. In all you do and all you fail to do!”

Paul reached for the star in his pocket. “How can I be your life’s work?”

“It’s simple. I’m a homeless guy. A man with a dark past, a lifeless now and no future. I’m a madman. No one will listen to me. They say I’m crazy. But you — you —Paul — you have it all — you have believability. If I say ‘Love each other’ it gets ignored. If you say it, it gets attention because people trust you. Believe you. You are the good neighbor, the good father and husband.

“Maybe your life’s work is just to be you and tell people to love each other and to ‘Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.’ It’s really simple Paul. Be yourself, tell people to love each other. A good man like you can make a difference.”

“So, just be myself?”

“Be yourself, and continue to spread the good news and show mercy.”

“When the Pope was here he talked about mercy and taking care of those less fortunate.”

“When good people do that – when they show mercy – they are His living miracles.”

“People are wrong Nick,” Paul said wiping away a tear. “You’re not a madman. You’re Nick. A beautiful friend and person — and you are loved.”

“You’re loved too Paul. Your good works will live on long after you body gives up its soul. God bless you Paul. God bless you and your family.”

Paul hugged his friend. “God bless you too Nick.

“And Happy Birthday.”

Paul tucked the star back in his pocket and headed out the door as a 5 minute walk worked its way into a much longer adventure as he trudged and slipped and slid his way toward the hospital to be with Anna.

Nick Santa Croce decided to grab a taste of all the different fish, eating heartily and thanking God for what he had and for saving his life. Nick lay in his bed and prayed on this most holy of nights. He lovingly touched his scapular and as he did he heard a voice far off. “Nick,” it called. “Nick.

He didn’t recognize the voice. “My tears and prayers helped me bring back my son from spiritual death to life. I was with you when you were in school, watching over you. Your mother’s tears and prayers were your strength when you had nothing left. I was with your mother when you were at your lowest and I took your one hand as she took your other.”

“Saint Monica. Is that you?” The beautiful woman smiled. “Come home Nicholas so my son Augustine can greet you.”

Nick was wheezing, coughing and breather harder.

“Thank you Nick for wearing that scapular.” Another voice, this time a bright light, a flashing radiant light of blue. “You and all who are here are my children. I love you Nicholas Santa Croce.”

“Mary. Blessed Mother!” Nick called out grasping his scapular.

“Nicholas,” Mary said. “My son is waiting for you — He is always here,” she tapped her heart, “He is always there,” she opened her arms to represent the world. “He is love.”

Nick reached out and felt a hand grasp his. “Come home Nick. Time to come home. Your work is done here.”

“Mom! Mom is that you?!”

“Yes Nick. I never stopped loving you.”

“Mom, I love you.” Nick reached out to embrace his mother. She hugged him, then he felt the warmth of another hug — this one from someone he didn’t expect — it was the warmth of his father’s hug. “I always loved you, too Nick. I just didn’t do a good enough job of doing it. Forgive me Nick.”

“Dad, oh dad! I love you — I love you!” Nick was fully weeping.

He felt the embrace of his mother, father and countless souls, comforting him, wiping away years and years of pain.

As their embrace ended, Nick saw through the mist of his eyes a man glowing in a brilliant light, a sensational, brilliant light. He was smiling a warm smile. He tapped his heart and said in a gentle voice, “Your work is done Nicholas. Your heart is healed and your soul is pure. You are with us now. Welcome home, my son.”

“I’m home,” Nick exhaled as tears washed down his face for the last time.




Paul and Anna held hands – he had made it in time. The doctor and nurses were encouraging and prompting Anna as the baby was making its way into the world. Paul felt tightness in his whole body — he felt faint and lightheaded and briefly lost his breath.

He knew. He knew the fate of his old friend. He knew. Paul held Anna’s hand with one hand reached into his pocket with his free hand and felt the star. He started to cry ever so quietly. “Nick. Nick.”

He shook himself and refocused on his wife when he heard the doctor say “Keep strong Anna, keep strong.”

“How’s her signs?”

“Stable,” he heard one of the nurses say.

“You’re doing fine Anna. I’m not so sure about you Paul,” the doctor said.

“I’m fine,” Paul said.

“Here we go. Here we go.” It was the doctor giving a play-by-play. “Baby is coming. Here comes the baby.”

“It’s OK honey, it’s Ok. You’re doing great” Paul encouraged Anna.

“Here comes baby” the doctor said.

“It’s a ….. GIRL! It’s a GIRL” the doctor called out.

As Paul and Anna’s third child breathed her first breaths, Paul looked at the clock — 12:45 am. Christmas Day. A Christmas baby. The miracle of life. She was beautiful and healthy and all anyone could ask for.

Paul called his brother’s house to talk to the kids. “Hey guys. I know it’s late – but we wanted to get to you as soon as we could.” Anna held the baby up so Paul could use his phone to show the kids.

“We welcome into our family — our Christmas miracle.

“Say hello to your sister Nicole.”

Paul reached into his pocket to touch the star and at the same time he put his little finger in her tiny hand and she grasped it. “It’s like a miracle out of nowhere,” he thought to himself.

As the kids and mom were smiling and crying Paul looked to Heaven, thanking the Lord for his blessings and for loving him and his family. Always.


Here I am, I’m sure to see a sign

All my life I knew that it was mine

It’s always here, it’s always there

It’s just love and miracles out of nowhere.

Miracles Out of Nowhere copyright Kansas, 1976

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